Feast or Famine?

Do you ever have  a “blah” day? You know, that day when you just feel like you’re going through the motions? Everyday feels the same, nothing drives you, time slips away faster than you can manage, yet somehow time doesn’t pass quick enough either?

This was my life a few months ago. I was emotionally out of it, and spiritually drained almost all the time. For a week or two, I experienced all of the above and it really began to frustrate me especially because I couldn’t pinpoint why I felt this way!

One of those days, I was sitting on the couch doing nothing in particular when I noticed my Bible and journal on the table next to me. Instantly, I felt a twinge of guilt. I probably hadn’t touched my God-journal in a month and I couldn’t even remember the last time I’d read my Bible. And it wasn’t like I had lost them. They had both been right there on the table for a while and I saw them everyday. But the longer I went without using them, the harder it was to start back up again. I had no interest to get into the Word, even though I was spiritually starving for it!

Finally, I picked them up and after aimlessly flipping through Scripture, I began to talk to God about how I felt and how I was tired of feeling that way all the time. And you know what? God was so good. He responded to me in the most loving way. There wasn’t any condemnation in His voice.

When I asked God what had happened, He answered through this really cool example.

During that time frame, I had been skipping lunch. I worked from 6am to 10am and when I’d finally get home, all I could think about was getting started with my homework. So I would hunker down and dive straight into my work, forgetting God and lunch.  Initially, nothing bothered me, but after a few days, I started getting nauseous from being so “over hungry.”

The problem with getting over hungry, was that I couldn’t fathom putting anything in my mouth, even though food was exactly what I needed! Likewise, I had become so spiritually “over hungry” that I was continuing to put my God-Time off. And the longer I went without any solid God-Time, the more that funk set in.

When I prayed about a solution, God told me to treat my spiritual dilemma the same way I would my physical hunger. Eat something small, and slowly work myself back up. We don’t have to read ten chapters a day to make up for what we missed. We wouldn’t eat ten meals in one sitting to make up for skipping a meal.

I can’t tell you how comforting His response was! As a recovering perfectionist, God’s solution took so much pressure off of me. It switched my attitude from fear of disappointing Him, to one of feeling free which made me look forward to spending time with Him again.

And that’s the very heart of why we read our Bibles or spend time praying or journaling. We do it to meet with and spend time with God, who also wants to be with us.

Aside from that, we walk through our day so differently when we have the Word or praise and worship inside of us. When my brother was little, he was reading his Bible and that day he read about Jesus healing the blind man. When my mom asked him what God wanted to show him, his response was, “God showed me that when I don’t start off in God’s Word, I go through the day like a blind man.” My mom was blown away and that picture has stuck in my mind ever since.

Whether you’re new to reading your Bible or you’re an avid studier, or anywhere inbetween, I want to encourage you to really dive in on a regular basis. It makes a huge difference on your life, your day, your attitude and joy. It becomes a light in you that starts to pour into others around you.

The more you familiarize yourself with God’s truth, the bolder you become when you deal with fear or pain or temptation. Your Bible is a sword! It holds the power of truth and wisdom and it has the power to change your life, your situation, and your relationships.

Now let’s be honest… Most of us probably identify with being busy in some way or another. We have work, friends, family, and even church pulling at us. So how can we make sure that God is still getting some of our precious time?

A great thing that you can do is pray and ask God. He  knows how busy you are and He’ll gladly help you set aside the best time of day to be with Him.  And if reading your Bible before bed and then thinking on what you read on the way to work the next morning is what is best for you, then go for it! There’s nothing less powerful about reading your Bible at night. There’s even verses that talk about seeking God at night and the blessings that come from that.

And some days of your week might be different than others. I can’t read my Bible first thing in the morning every day of the week. In this part of my journey, I’m trying to pray about how I can still get my God-Time in on Tuesdays and Wednesdays and Thursday. Your schedule may look something like that too.

Another great thing to do is read different Bible versions. It changes things up and it can also speak to you differently in that moment. It doesn’t change the verse in the sense of one version  is right or wrong. What it does is convey the same idea in a different way. You can easily check out other versions using a Bible app like Biblegateway or YouVersion.

Also, incorporating praise and worship takes your God-Time to a whole other level of intimacy. For one thing, praise is powerful. It glorifies God and it helps us to take our mind off of whatever’s pulling at us so that we can hear Him more clearly.

Finally, having a journal to record what you read, what those verses mean to you, and what God is speaking to you, is an invaluable resource. It will help you to remember what you’re learning. When the enemy tries to have you doubt, you can look back at the truths in your journal. You can go back and remind yourself of God’s promises and His faithfulness.

My goal in sharing all of this is to encourage you. Every one of us goes through different seasons in life. And each season affects our day to day lives. We all have different jobs, schedules, and responsibilities. Sometimes, we’re going to have those crazy days where life just happens and things like praise and worship, or Bible reading, or prayer can get put on the back burner.  But,  don’t give up! Your time with Him is totally worth it and He is always there for you!

Jeremiah 29:13 - “When you seek me in prayer and worship, you will find me available to you. If you seek me with all your heart and soul,” (NET Bible)

Proverbs 8:17 - "I love all who love me. Those who search will surely find Me” (NLT)